A year ago today

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This time last year I was getting ready to head off to hospital for my VSG (weight loss surgery). I was 124kg (273lbs) and unhappy with my body. Within 6 months I had reached 92kg (202lbs) and have stayed within the same couple kgs(lbs) ever since. If you’ve been reading my blog for a while you’ll know how happy I am that I had the surgery – it really has changed my life.

However, today I’m actually feeling a little down about the fact I have not managed to lose any more weight. I am still obese and have at least 20kg (44lbs) to get to my goal weight. Most days I’m happy, but on others, like today, I feel like a bit of a failure. Diets just don’t work for me and unfortunately I’ve slipped back into old habits like having unhealthy snacks. Quite frankly I don’t think I’ll lose any more weight without more surgery so I’m going to see my doctor again and see what possibilities there are.

I’d been thinking about todays post for the last month or so as my “surgiversary” approached and had such hopes for great before and after photos and narrative full of optimism and hope. Not quite how it’s turned out. I feel like a bit of a hypocrite cause I love the VSG and praise it constantly, yet I’m still fat and have not reached my goal (which most people seem to do in the first year). I guess my mental issues with food did not just disappear like I’d hoped.

Anyway, I’m still 100% happy that I had the VSG, just disappointed that I didn’t make it work for me the way I should have.

5 comments

  1. Annie Adams says:

    I personally think you look fabulous!! Losing weight is so hard and you have done a terrific job so far…..71 lbs. in one year seems like a heck of a lot…….you can do it…….just keep plugging along but I think talking with your doctor will give you more insight into what should happen next. I don’t think you should blame yourself for anything…….you are terrific!

  2. Effie says:

    Hey Libby,
    You look fantastic and just keep smiling and dont give up not matter what okay. You have achieved so much in this last year, good on you Libby.

    I do understand your feelings regarding being on a plateau. I am now losing 1/2 kilo a week and its slowing down alot. As you know I have alot of weight to loose but Im so grateful at the loss so far.

    You are special in your own unique way and I dont want to see such a lovely person who has worked so hard at the VSG to feel sad.

    So keep up the fighting spirit Libby, I’m here if you feel like chatting okay

    Kindest Regards Effie

  3. Chantel says:

    Hi Libby,

    You have acheieved so much in a year 🙂

    I know how you feel though. As you know I had the band and I’ve lost about 10 kilos in 1 year!

    There are times where I feel incredibly sad that I couldn’t have been one of the ones that lost it all really quickly.

    You’ve done really well and I’m proud of all you’ve achieved 🙂

    You’re a work in progress, you’ll get there mate.

  4. Kez says:

    Hi Libby,

    I’m proud of you for what you have achieved. Good luck with the rest – but remember – BABYSTEPS!!

    Kerrie

  5. HomeGrownKids says:

    I agree! You look fantastic!!!! Oh, who am I? some random commenter lol. I stumbled here via Belinda Moore’s blog…and found we had a few things in common like WLS.

    I had my op about 9-10 years ago. I lost approx 55kgs and got down to 65kgs where I stayed for a few years. I did my knee in and had to have a knee reconstruction and from there, I have slowly gained the weight all over again. 65kgs was too skinny for me and I wasn’t comfortable…I’m now about 85kg but I’m not happy. My happiest weight is about 75kg. but oh, it’s the same old story – it’s so hard to lose.

    if I did it all over again I would NOT have the surgery. It has totally played havoc with my metabolism, I am vitamin deficient, suffer through the cold now and a few other things.

    I had it because I thought I had tried everything but I had never tried Body for Life…if I had to do it all over again, I’d do it that way.

    nice to visit your blog!

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